Dec 15 - Luke 18:1-8

parable of the persistent widow...

this is a story that gets me going all the time
it's about a widow who couldn't get things in her ways
but when she persistently asked for something
at the end she did get it her way even though judge was
at first not willing to listen...

this reminds me of the story of me and praise band
at first i thought that because i knew how to play bass
guitar and was better than everyone in church i should be
playing and i was wrong in that perspective... i thought i was
better than others and i was not paying attention to the
important thing of being in a praise band... which is to
worship God with your heart... not always with your talent...

i persistently asked God for my chance to serve as a
praise band member for many years but no answers came
but i never gave up... i started saying things like oh.. if i played
bass for the praise band then i'd have to go to church and
that'll be actually good for my spiritual life!

but i found out recently that... that wasn't the case
God was waiting for me to learn the lesson of... wanting to
go to church... because i want to worship God and give my all to God
not to play bass every friday sunday.

sophmore year in college i attended church regularly to
all the meetings and i realized that when i said i'd go to church
more frequently if i play in praise band... that's going more to
just play bass... and i'd not beable to see the whole picture of
serving God by playing bass.

i was persistent on asking but God ignored me for my good...
i believe that i learned so much more from my mistakes... so much
more by not serving... and now that i'm serving... i'm going through
and learning more about serving.

now there is a complete different obstacle, but
going to church 5 days a week... frustrates every once inawhile...
but... it's not frustration... that's just devil working in us..
church 5 days a week... going to church at 9:30 is...
joy....

feeling God's love for us... is joy...
i still have to learn and grow much more in Christ.